I write this at an odd 1:10am on a ‘random’ post-full moon Monday evening; it seems that the mess, chaos, and pain is the sharpest way to bring oneself into clarity and alignment.
As we all continue to witness these times of polarity, warped news, horrifying violence, extreme dogmatism, and ultimately, the wound of separation; amidst the rampant collective trauma – I’ve offered myself the privilege of taking time to be in deep communion with the natural world to excavate my core wounds. I believe that the deeper I understand my core, the closer I can touch and affect the collective core, for the better. These travels are not vacations, but rather, an active consultation within wild landscapes on how to place myself in this world.
During this pilgrimage, I dove into the deep blue ocean with black-tip sharks, I prayed in sacred caves, I sat with native elder healers of my heritage, I cleansed my gut, I spent time with my Mother, I rode a motorbike amidst majestic mountains, I laughed with loved ones, I made medicine balms, I learned Sufi whirling, I am learning how to cross-pollinate regeneration and business, and I took time in different caverns of forests, mountains, beach coves, and road trips.
Most of all, fear has become my comrade.
I borrow from Julia Butterfly Hill on Fear as Simple and Profound. She shares “Fear will drive us to make choices that our hearts don’t long to make… How that manifests is our addiction to comfortability.” In this time of polarity, I hope we know that there is always a seed of courage within us to be radically honest, yet with a width of compassion to hold ourselves and each other despite the fragility of humanity.
If we allow the moulding, constriction, and pressure to move through us; little by little, we piece ourselves together again. I faced some of my biggest fears this year, and it has brought me into more challenging waters. When the season comes around, and we witness life around in shambles; we somehow find a way to hold on tight, and let go, at the same time.
Some of the harvests of these waters will be ready to be shared when it is ripe – I am taking a little longer than usual to deepen its roots. For now I have one offering to share; I am returning to Singapore for the month of September; and sharing one-on-one therapy. You are most welcome. Please share this with folks whom you feel may be supported by this.
All my love,
